(Monday, August 16, 2010)
SINGAPORE 10:43 PM
I'm a bully.
I've been reflecting on my actions for years now and I just teared up again, regretting my actions in the past.
I was well-liked in my family in the past, and till date i still considered myself as a spoilt-brat. Those days, I used to shared porridge with my grandfather, according to what my dad told me. Being an ignorant and greedy me, I always wanted a bite. It's been 12 years since my grandfather passed on now, and I just started to realised that the few spoon of porridge could possibly helped him to live longer. I was so guilty when I realised that, and couldn't stop blaming myself.
Another greatest sin was when I bullied my elder sister when I was in Primary School. I used to make fun of her, and insult her. I didn't think about how much she helped me back then, I was really selfish. As i grew older, I realised that actually could emotionally hurt her, and even have a long-term impact. Looking at her past photos, I really regretted my actions. The other day, when we were packing our room, she spotted a picture of her, and said she was ugly in the picture, and wanted to throw it away. I refused and kept it my placing it under the table. This shows that she was hurt in the past. Really regretful.
Lastly, i have hurt friends too. I've really got to apologize to you guys, especially Wei Liang. I was really ignorant in the past during the Lower Secondary Days, and I don't deserve your friendship. I'm really grateful you still accept me as a good friend, although I have hurt you in the past.
I sincerely apologize, and I hope I would not do anything which upsets others and make myself regret my actions again.
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